There are always going to be low points in your life. Ones that are easy to recover from, and others where you feel like you will never be able to get back up again. You will feel like you have shattered, and instead of picking up your own pieces, you watch the ones you love try to do it for you. You can't eat, can't sleep, and have a constant sick-to-your-stomach feeling. How can you push your heart and mind to recover from all of this?
It's hard. Each day gets a little harder. The longer something is missing from your life, the less you feel as a person. You feel like you can't escape it. The sadness is everywhere. You hear a song on the radio, come across a picture, have a dream, even just think about something, and feel sad. Nothing feels real, all you can do is go through the motions and hope one day things will pick back up.
And they will. You're going to feel down for a long time. You need to accept that. If it meant anything to you, it's going to hurt to not have it anymore. It's supposed to hurt. Then one day you are going to wake up, and something will be different. Maybe you wont feel so sick anymore, or you'll suddenly be craving your favorite breakfast food. You can't rush yourself, there is no quick fix to deep pain. Do your best to take a day an hour at a time. "I made it from 9:00 to 10:00, time to try 10:00 to 11:00." Do things you enjoy. Paint a picture, make a mix tape, read your favorite book. Go to the shelter and play with dogs, drive to the beach, just try to make yourself less sad. Make happiness a goal. You need to achieve many things in order to accomplish a goal, it is not just granted in the blink of an eye.
The hardest thing to accept is that you cannot blame yourself. Things just happen in this world, and they are out of your control. It's going to be tough, but it isn't your fault. There was nothing you could've done to see it coming, and nothing you can do to change it. Nothing would be thrown your way that you couldn't handle. Experiences make you a stronger, better person. They make you learn things about yourself that you never knew. They make you realize, "If I can get through that, I can do anything."
Life is going to go on for everyone else. Just because your world has come to a halt doesn't mean anyone else's has. You are going to see other people happy, and feel jealous and angry that you can't do the same. You are going to feel like you're invisible, wonder why nobody stops and asks you, "hey, are you okay?" You can't sit around and wait for something to change. Wait for him to call you and tell you it was all a big mistake. Time heals everything, all you can do is wait. If something is meant to be, it will be.. No matter what.
After the sadness, there is going to be anger. You're no longer going to feel weak, you're going to feel powerful. You are going to want to yell, curse, punch, do anything you can to release these new found passionate feelings. If you need to, then do it. Just like medicine heals a sickness, releasing your emotions is the remedy for pain. Don't take your anger out on other people, however. Don't text people things, post things on social media, because you are better than that. Be angry, but be mature. Be the classy person you know you are. You were fine before the pain, you will be fine after.
Don't be afraid to express your feelings. Don't be afraid to talk to people. Your loved ones thrive to make you better. You are not bothering anyone, they want to help you. You are never alone. If you are spiritual, pray. If you have the opportunity, talk to a counselor, psychologist, maybe even a teacher or professor you have developed a close relationship with. Get advice from anyone and everyone you can, and piece it all together. Go out and do things you did with the someone or something that you lost. Even if it's hard, if you can't make it all the way through, just the attempt proves that you are getting a little stronger. Leave yourself little reminders that you will be okay. It seems cheesy, but you can't have a rainbow without a little rain. A friend of mine told me, "Sometimes life sucks, but we wouldn't be able to appreciate the wonderful times if it wasn't for some shitty times."
Nothing is perfect, and nothing lasts forever. How do you get back up? At your own pace. Be patient, take deep breaths, and don't give up hope. For every low, there is a high, and when you least expect it, happiness with flourish in your life once again.
Sincerely,
